She Who Rose: A Sacred Rebirth from the Ashes
- Bruklan Starr LeFay
- Nov 19, 2024
- 11 min read
Updated: Jul 23

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"Three things cannot be long hidden: The sun, the moon, and the truth"~Buddha
Greetings, my Fantastical Fairies and radiant magical Starr-bursts...and yes, a glitter-dusted nod to those swirling in a spell of Bruklan-itis you're seen to.
It's Goddess Bruklan here, conjuring up a soul-sparked blog post to ignite your inner fire and inspire you to create the most enchanted, elevated version of your life and, by ripple effect, awaken beauty and brilliance in the world around you.
Returning to Myself: Unmasked, Unfiltered, Unapologetic
Hello and welcome to The Selective Gemini. I'll start by telling you a little bit about myself and my rebirth from the ashes. From the day I was born I had to live as a version of myself that was shaped by survival, not authenticity. I had to wear masks to keep others comfortable. My voice was stolen from me by a group of people who didn't want to take any responsibility for their own words, and deeds, so they silenced me. I had to shrink my spirit to fit into their narrow minded box, but something in me refused to die the way that they had hoped. Something wild, sacred, and eternal. They thought they knew more than the Universal Source of all but they were so very wrong.
This is my return to the self I was forced to bury beneath trauma, people pleasing, and expectations. A self who has had to walk through fire, faced shadows, and chosen to rise rather than remain in ruins.
So allow me to reintroduce myself, not as who I was told to be, but as who I truly am. My name is Bruklan and theselectivegemini.com is my space to tell the story of my life and write about the subjects that interest me and to help people who are truly ready and willing to help themselves.
I am a creator, a healer, and a truth-speaker & seeker. I am soft as well as fierce, and I am finally whole. I am Divine Feminine energy in motion, learning to dance with the light and dark in equal reverence. I'm no longer here to impress or perform the way other people I've known throughout my life believe I should. I'm here to express, to embody, and to evolve.
This blog is not just a platform, it's a mirror, a portal, a reclamation. And if your reading this, it means you're witnessing the beginning of something sacred. Maybe not a perfect story, but a real one. One that might echo your own.
Welcome to my rising. Welcome to my truth❣️
Trapped, Tamed, and Taught to Shrink
Before I ever knew who I truly was, the people in the cult I was born into tried to mold me into who they wanted me to be. I grew up in an environment that lacked genuine support, which I can only describe as stunted growth, as that is precisely what it was. The people around me were more interested in getting me to bow down and worship the cult than they were in getting to know the real me.
They handed me scripts I never auditioned for, labels I never agreed to wear, and roles that kept me small, obedient, and disconnected from the true magic within me. I was taught to be "good", not real. To be quiet, not in my true power. To be what they needed me to be in order to keep me from growing and becoming who the Universe wanted me to be.
The cage they put me in didn't always appear to be a cage. Sometimes it looked like love, with conditions. Lovebombing to be exact. It was a cage of emotional manipulation, spiritual suppression, and wounds that were swept under the rug. A cage that made me doubt my worth, my voice, my intuition. One where my light was dimmed because it made them uncomfortable. One where my feminine power was feared, not honored.
I finally came to the truthful conclusion that nobody else was coming to save me. Nobody except the true Universal Source of all and my highest self. I left behind the version of me built for their comfort and began the long journey of remembering who I was truly meant to be. At this time most of my self-healing journey is already complete and I am at least 80% healed at all times. It is not anyone's place to try to undo my progress. Instead, they should focus on their own self-healing process.
With that work done, I have made the decision to concentrate on the present and eagerly anticipate my future.
Becoming Her: The Woman I Was Always Destined to Be
My awakening wasn't lightning bolt fast, it was a slow burn. A quiet voice that grew louder with every tear, every sleepless night, every moment I could no longer pretend. I didn't just wake up one day healed and whole. I cracked open, piece by piece, until all that was false began to fall away.
At first, I mourned the version of me I was forced to leave behind. The one who tried so hard to fit into that tiny box, to be enough for others. The one who wore the weight of everyone else's expectations and responsibilities. But as I grieved, I also started to breath. To feel. To see my true higher self.
Rebuilding wasn't easy. A real self-healing journey never is. I had to face the wreckage without flinching. I had to unlearn, untangle, and undo the lies masquerading as truths. I had to hold space for my pain without letting it define me.
With every layer I shed, something sacred emerged. My boundaries. My fire. My softness. My knowing. I began to build a life rooted in alignment, not approval. A life where I could finally hear my intuition louder than the noise that had been around me for so long. A life where I honored my body, my emotions, my energy.
I didn't become someone new. I became someone ancient. Someone real. Someone free.
I am a phoenix that has risen from the ashes. I am stronger, wiser, and more resilient than ever before. Like a tree with deeply rooted foundations and branches reaching higher than they ever have, I have grown from my trials.
The Empire I am now creating is mine. It is untouchable, and no one will ever take it from me. I've transformed the damage inflicted upon me into countless treasures. Pearls of wisdom and strength that I guard fiercely. I serve the Universe, and the Universe ensures that what is meant for me will remain mine.
Rebuilding myself after being deliberately torn down was one of the most challenging endeavors I have ever faced, but it has been worth every struggle. Those who sought to break me never believed I would rise again, let alone in such a profound way. Yet here I am. It's happening, and their disbelief only adds fuel to my determination.
What they did to me, and continue to do to others, stems from their need to control, to make other humans bow down and worship them. But I refused. I did not, and will not, yield to other humans who are unworthy of such reverence. I have grown too strong, too self-assured to succumb to their demands. They do not deserve my worship or anyone else's.
This Is My Mission: Walking In True Purpose, Living in True Power
Now that the ashes have settled and the old stories have burned away, I can see clearly. I wasn't broken, I was becoming. Everything I've been through wasn't just survival. It was preparation. Initiation. Sacred training for the life I'm meant to live and the mission I'm here to embody.
I am not here to fit in. I am here to transform. I am here to remind others of their own inner fire, to hold up a mirror so they can also remember their power, their beauty, their divinity. I walk the path of the healer, the messenger, the guide. I don't claim to be perfect. I claim my purpose.
My mission is to create spaces of healing, beauty, and real truth. To speak words that help to truly awaken souls. To share my journey so others feel less alone in theirs. To be a lighthouse for those still lost in the fog, whispering, "You are not broken. You are becoming."
I believe in radical self-love, in the power of divine feminine energy, in sacred rebellion. I believe in creating a life that feels like home. Not just for me, but for those who resonate with the frequency I am now living in.
My mission is about having an impact, being in alignment, and creating a legacy. It is about teaching others how to rise just as I have.
I move forward now with open eyes, open heart, and a bright shining light that cannot be dimmed.
Because when you know who you truly are, you stop asking for permission to be YOU.
I am my own niche, making this blog uniquely exclusive since only I can live in my own mind. This blog is intended for deeply empathic souls who resonate with intentional and elevated inspired living.
I no longer engage with destructive energy or behavior, as that kind of energy has no place in the world I am choosing to create for myself.
Self-Healing Is a Sacred Rebellion: Your rebirth from the ashes
No one was coming to save me and eventually I stopped waiting.
This realization didn't make me bitter. It made me brave. Because healing isn't a gift handed to you. It's a choice you make to create the best of the best for yourself. A commitment to meet yourself in the dark and still believe in your own light.
Self-healing isn't glamorous. It's not always candles and affirmations. Sometimes it's crying on the bathroom floor. Screaming in the closet. Sometimes it's saying no even when your voice shakes. Sometimes it's holding yourself like a little child and whispering, "Everything is going to be okay."
I had to unhook from the Illusion that healing would come from external sources. I had to turn inward. To listen to the wounds, to rewrite the patterns, to disable and banish generational curses, and to reclaim the parts of me I once abandoned for acceptance and so-called love.
No other person or substance could do it for me. And that's the beauty of it. Because now I know my power is mine. My peace is mine. My healing is mine.
I learned to be my own safe space, my own guide, my own medicine. And from that place of wholeness I can now hold space for others on their paths.
This isn't just my story, it's a mirror for yours. You are your own healer. You are your own hero. You are the one you've been waiting for. You are the only one who can truly help YOU!
So help yourself. Not because no one else cares, but because you do.
And that kind of self love, that's where the real magic begins.
My Final Thoughts
Thank you for reading this blog post. This post isn't just a reintroduction. It's a declaration. A sacred beginning. A rising.
I wrote this not to say, "Look at me, look at me, I've healed," but to say, " Here I am, still rising, and you can rise too." Healing is not a straight line. It's a spiral. A dance. A constant unfolding. And every step you take towards your true self matters.
If you're in your own ashes right now, I want you to know, there is life after the burn. There is beauty in the rebuilding. There is power in choosing yourself, again and again, even when it's hard.
This space and this journey is for all of us reclaiming our voices, rewriting our stories, and remembering who the hell we are.
You are not alone. You are not too much. You are not too broken.
You are sacred. You are rising. And your story is powerful and far from over.
Let this be your sign to begin again. Become louder, softer, wiser, freer. Just begin.
Until we meet again, may your path be lit with moonbeams, your heart guided by stardust, and your days wrapped in pure magic.
I'll see you in the next post, my luminous beings. Stay glowing, stay golden.
AFFIRMATION
I am no longer who I was told to be. I am who I was born to become.
Ritual of Rising: Rebirth Into Your True Self
You'll need:
A candle (white or gold for truth and light)
A mirror
A piece of paper and pen
A bowl of water or a small rose quarts crystal
A quiet space where you won’t be disturbed
Step 1: Prepare Your Sacred Space
Light the candle and take a few deep, slow breaths. Place the mirror in front of you. Let the space feel like an altar to your rebirth. Simple, sacred, and intentional.
Step 2: Face Yourself
Look in the mirror and softly speak the words, "I see you. I forgive you. I honor you. I'm ready to become you." Let any emotion rise. This is the beginning of remembrance.
Step 3: Release the cage
On your paper, write a list titled:
"What I'm leaving behind"
List all the old stories, cages, identities, and wounds you are ready to release without judgment. Fold the paper and place it beside the candle.
Say aloud:
"I release what is no longer mine to carry. I set myself free."
Step 4: Reclaim Your Truth
Now write a second list titled:
"Who I am becoming"
Describe the version of yourself you are now choosing to embody. Let your soul speak freely.
Hold your hands over the water or crystal and say:
"I bless this becoming. I am ready."
Dip your fingers into the water and anoint your heart, crown, and throat chakras or simply hold the crystal to your heart.
Step 5: Seal the Ritual
Close your eyes and say this invocation:
"I rise as the person I was born to be, whole, sovereign, and sacred. I walk forward in purpose. I walk forward in truth. I walk forward in love. And so it is."
Blow out the candle and seal the ritual with the following prayer.
Prayer to the Universal Source of All
Divine source of all that is,
Thank you for the fire that did not consume me,
But refined me,
For the darkness that became my teacher,
And the silence that led me back to my soul.
I return to you now, not as someone lost,
But as someone found within myself.
Guide me as I walk in my truth,
Anchor me in love,
And reminds me that every breath is sacred,
Every scar is a star map,
And every step forward is a prayer in motion.
May my healing serve the healing of others.
May my rising lift those still in ashes.
And may I never forget that I am not separate from you,
I am You in motion.
And so it is.
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Love~2~All
Your Voice Matters!
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